Lost In Beauty-

Sunday, April 19, 2009

haiz... i'm not happy today! duno y... mayb slp too much or wat... feel so moody de whole day.... sianz... no mood to do work... so many tings haven do yet... nv reli study anything today... wasting my time... but i watch xin xing de yan lei... jerry so handsome... i tink de oni ting tat make me smile today was tat show... see jerry smile oso got xin fu de feeling leh! lols... haiz... tml need go sch again... so wish i can slp... continue to slp... till dun wake up anymore...
anw... my mum said tat she's going china wif my dad on 9th of may... sianz... i cannot go.... all because i need to go sch! hate sch... but to tink on the bright side... i should ting tat i now study hard den next time can earn more money n go more country... haiz... but everyday wonder wat my life will be next time.. hu will still be around me n hu will leave my life... tinking of tat reli make me feels like giving up my life... happiness seems so far from me... i reli duno when can i reli be happy n have no stress n worry... now i reli noe y some ppl will commit suicide... cas life is so miserable... but i dun tink i have de courage to endure such pain of commiting suicide... y can't i jus slp till die... den i will be v happy... haiz... life sux!!!
i tink i'm not like last time anymore... i'm not happy n lively anymore... everyting seems meaningless... haiz...
kkz... go le... bb~!

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